Zipping Through the Rain

Friday was truly an exercise in mindfulness.  Zipping thru the trees hanging from a wire high in the Blue Ridge Mountains definitely took me out of my comfort zone and focused entirely on the here and now.

Why, you may be asking yourself, would Karen even consider a mile and a half zip line course? You must have guessed that I did not do this alone.  No, I didn’t do it with Timothy, my 23 year old son.  My father was the catalyst for this adventure.  The zip line was on his “bucket list” so we celebrated his 79^th birthday zipping through the air at Hawk’s Nest just out of Boone.

There I was on the first take off point.  Believe me, zipping thru the air, adjusting my grip to keep myself from turning around backwards where I would not be able to see the tree top landing pad and know when to brake, kept me fully in the moment better than any Buddhist mindfulness training could ever hope to do.  However, as soon as my feet landed on the platform high in the trees, my mindful, meditative focus disappeared as I worriedly awaited my Dad’s arrival.

Each line of the course presented a new challenge, a new leap of faith and a new opportunity to be fully present to the trees, the hum of the wire, and the air whooshing by.  But as is so often the case in any spiritual journey, as soon as I was safe, my focus shifted and I began to worry once again. 

Once we made it to the halfway point on our journey thru the trees, I was beginning to feel more confident and comfortable with the adventure and……then….. it began to rain, just a light drizzle at first and then a pouring rain.  I heard one of our guides comment that the lines weren’t too slick YET!

The next line was short and the fastest zip and now it was also slick.  As I took off braking the whole way with my leather clad glove as instructed, I felt the heat from the friction thru my glove, but didn’t seem to be slowing down.  It was kind of like being in labor, once you’ve started there is no backing out.  Now came my lesson in trust.  I had taken my leap of faith, done all I could, so now I had to trust that the guide at the end of line would break my descent before I hit the tree.  Quicker than I could blink he used a leather strap to stop me just in the knick of time, right before I was intimately and rudely introduced to the tree.  Needless to say, I was ready to call it quits, but the only way off of the stand high in the trees was the next zip line.

I felt just a little bit like Peter when he stepped out of the boat and headed across the water to Jesus only to realize that he really didn’t know how to walk on water.  I still had 4 lines to go and my courage was sinking.  Then here comes my 79 year old Dad, my faith is bolstered and on we go.

I make my final leap of faith, soar through the air to the final landing pad, raining pouring down, glasses so wet I can hardly see.  I make it!  Touch Down!!  I did it!  My elation lasted about 10 seconds then the guide pointed to a wooden slatted swinging bridge 100 feet in the air, no hand rails or sides, just the cable overhead to steady you as you make your way across.  So once again, I step out, one foot in front of the other, hanging on for dear life, I slowly make it across the bridge to safety….no, to another bridge, one more test.  As I finally step onto solid, but very soggy wet ground, I look back and there is my Dad, following in my footsteps.  Dripping wet, safe on the ground, proud of ourselves we head to the van, out of the rain with a bucket full of memories.

Just like Peter, I sometimes need to step out of my comfort zone and take a leap of faith.  Just like Peter, I may at times feel like I am sinking, but someone will reach out and help me.  And…just like Peter, I may have gotten soaking wet, but what lessons I learned and what memories I have to cherish.

So, thank you Daddy for a great 79^th birthday celebration.  I wouldn’t have done this without you and I am so glad to have both the memories and lessons from our zipping through the rain.!!

The Crowing Rooster

Our neighbors at our mountain cabin now have flock of hens and a rooster.  Just the other day, as I was  sitting on the screened in porch doing my morning meditation, trying to calm my racing mind and settle into silence, the rooster crowed,  and the rooster crowed and then again the rooster crowed.  That blasted rooster is on autopilot, impulsively, instinctively doing what he is used to doing…..so he crows and he crows and he crows.

I began to think about myself and what in my life is like the crowing of the rooster.  Where are my actions or reactions on autopilot?  What do I do in my life that is as automatic as the rooster crowing?   I was reading the other day that any pattern of thought or action that is repeated many times can result in neurosignature, or “brain groove”.  When we do or think the same thing over and over in response to stimuli our brain creates a pathway of interconnected neurons, or a “brain groove”.  So instead of actually thinking about what we do or how we think about a particular issue we are on autopilot, we are in effect the crowing rooster. 

Where have I allowed negative “brain grooves” to encroach on mindful thoughts and behaviors?   I just finished reading Paulo Coelho’s  The Witch of Portobello, where the teaching about  raising spiritual awareness stressed the need to step out of the ordinary reaction to the rhythm of life and do what actually feels discordant as a practice to feeling the Spirit’s presence.  Perhaps that is why so many of the great mystics truly marched to a different drummer.

This week I will pray for illumination, for increasing awareness of where in my life I have a crowing rooster that needs to be examined, that needs to be brought into my prayerful awareness.  I will mindfully choose my actions and my thoughts, even if they feel discordant so I get rid of some of those blasted crowing roosters in my life and step more fully into the presence of the Spirit.

This I Believe....

There is a wonderful radio show on NPR call "This I Believe".  Different speakers share a significant belief that is foundational for their lives.  The Rowan Public Library has some of the "Best of the Show" on Audio CD for check out.  I was driving my car listening to each of these very normal people declare their beliefs and decided that I would take the challenge.  What is the core of what I believe about God?  So here goes......

I believe in the mystery and wonder of God, the Nurturing Creative Force of all that is.  I believe that I am a part of this Wondrous Entity just as a drop of water is part of the ocean or a molecule of hydrogen is part of the universe.  Therefore saying that we are one in the body of Christ is not just a metaphor to me, but an actuality.  I believe that sin is anything that separates us from this knowing and thereby creates disharmony in the whole.  Just as a virus causes havoc in our body so can the virus of sin cause havoc in the Body of the Universal I Am.

I believe that the “cure” for this virus is at all times available and that by opening myself to the cure of love I am helping to create harmony in the body as a whole.  Peace within is indeed peace for the whole.

I believe that my separation from God is illusion.  If God is indeed omnipresent then she is infused in every atom, every quantum particle of my being.  Indeed God is within me, within the dandelion, the shell, the ocean, the birds, my neighbor and my enemy.  Indeed when I do something for "the least of these", I am doing it not just for God but for my neighbor, my lover, the person imprisoned in Guantanamo, the child in Guatemala, for the rocks, the sand, the trees and the mountains.  We are all a part of this Wondrous Cosmos, this Universal Force, this Unnamable Mystery.  What I do here in the little community of China Grove does indeed impact the world.

Indeed, I can plug into the Source of all that is, commune with the Mystery, raise my awareness and understanding of the Divine, but what little I learn, what little I know and understand will continue to point to the absolute incomprehensible greatness, majesty , wonder and love that is beyond all that I can even imagine.  I can never through my own understanding grasp the nature of God, but only know her through human metaphor and human limitations.

My limited understanding leads me to believe that God is merciful in ways that I will never understand.  I believe that God’s justice is about full reconciliation of all creation not about condemnation because in my limited awareness, in my humanity I have in my ignorance not been able to comprehend the vastness of her love for all.  God does not make mistakes. Life has been created in vast diversity which I am called to celebrate rather than condemn. Eternal life is a restorative process that has already begun not a threat for future punishment or a reward for good behavior.  God is love and all that God does is for the restoration of all; that thru grace, all of God’s creation can know and experience the fullness of God’s love.

So knowing this, how do I respond, how do I live?  What am I called to do in response to this Love?  Indeed God’s work is in my hands.  Keeping my ego out of the equation is vital to my open experience of God.  I am who I am through no credit of my own will or design. God has provided me with certain skills and abilities and has provided me with exactly what I need to bring to the opportunities before me.  I pray that I can release the desires and needs of the ego and stand as a child of the Mystery, a bearer of the Light, a sharer of God’s love wherever I am called to do so.

What do you believe?  What is at the core of your understanding of the nature of God and the universe?  Take the challenge to go beyond the creeds and dogma that you grew up with and dig a little deeper into what you believe about God at the core of your being.  Take the challenge!

Pebbles for Peace

I remember as a child tossing pebbles into the pond on our farm and watching the ripples expand into ever wider circles until the entire pond had felt the movement from that tiny little pebble.  The actions for peace and unity that we take each day of our lives no matter how small and insignificant they seem to us create the same effect.  One small act of compassion creates ripples of compassion that literally move the entire world. 

Perhaps all I can do today is acknowledge the flagman who is directing traffic during road construction.  Rather than expressing my frustration because my travels have been delayed, I will try a smile or a nod of appreciation for the hot, boring but essential job that the flagman or woman is providing.  Maybe my peace offering for the day will be to let the mother with the young toddler go ahead of me in the grocery line, or to leave the closest parking space in the lot for the next person, whoever they may be. 

When I started thinking about this idea, I remembered a song from my teenage years that started with the line “It only takes a spark to get a fire going….”   And then I remembered one of my favorite quotes from Mother Teresa , “In this life we cannot do great things. We can only do small things with great love.”  Indeed even fairy tales of our childhood speak of the power of small things.  Remember that infamous pea that kept the Princess awake all night long.

Wouldn’t it be great if instead of just a few ripples, we created a tidal wave of peace and compassion?  Next time I feel frustration, impatience, anger, maybe I will remember to stop and remember that I can choose peace.  I can take one small action that will create a ripple of compassion that can be felt around the world.  Maybe if you join me we can indeed create a tidal wave of peace from a few small pebbles.

Stop...Look....Listen

"We need to find ways to lift the moments of our daily lives — to celebrate and consecrate the ordinary, to allow the light of spiritual awareness to illuminate our days. For though we may not live a holy life, we live in a world alive with holy moments. We need only take the time to bring these moments into the light."

— Kent Nerburn in Small Graces

The air outside this morning is crisp and clean.  As I stood watching the sunrise this morning, I experienced one of the "Small Graces" that Kent Nerburn speaks about.  Then I came into my computer and here was this quote waiting for me.  How many opportunities each day pass us by without lifting our awareness of the Presence of the Divine all around us?  I am reminded of the the Ancient Celts who were onto something when they with joy, prayer and poetry acknowledged even the mundane happenings in the world around them.  While we in our modern world become so engrossed with our technology, our Smart Phones, Facebook, and TV, that we miss out on the wonders that are all around us each and every minute of our waking lives.  Thich Nat Han, the wonderful Buddist monk and writer speaks similarly in reminding us to be mindful and fully aware of our experiences.

So just for today, I am challenging myself to pay attention, to be mindful, to rejoice in the "Small Graces" I will encounter today.  Maybe I will have the pleasure of seeing a young child laugh with delight, or stop to actually listen to the bird's morning song.

Here is your challenge as well.  Just for today.... STOP... LOOK.... LISTEN....experience a few of God's "Small Graces" that are planted in your path today.

Compassionate Listening

Since I've announnced my new calling and career path, I have been asked,  "just what is a Spiritual Director?" .

Spiritual direction is the contemplative practice of helping another person awaken to the mystery of the Divine in all of life, the process of accompanying people on a spiritual journey. Through Spiritual direction we become more aware of the many ways in which God may be touching our lives, directly or indirectly. Spiritual direction helps us learn how to live in peace, with compassion, promoting justice, giving honor and glory to that which is beyond naming.   A Spiritual Director is a compassionate listener.  Listening to another person with a loving, caring, open heart allows room for the Spirit to become present and provide guidance.  A Spiritual Director listens and provides a person with practices that can help them open more fully to God's presence in their life.  It is not a process of instructing the person in specific beliefs but an openness that helps another person become more aware of the way the Spirit touches their life and the places they are being nudged by the Spirit to make changes or move forward.

As we reach out to share the lives of those around us, remember our advice is not nearly as effective as listening with an open heart.   

Compassionate listening is crucial. We listen with the willingness to relieve the suffering of the other person, not to judge or argue with her. We listen with all our attention. Even if we hear something that is not true, we continue to listen deeply so the other person can express her pain and release her tensions within herself. If we reply to her or correct her, the practice will not bear fruit. We just listen. - Thich Nhat Hanh

Awaken!

Over the past several years I have felt myself become very restless to the point of resistant to the rather limited words that so often we use to describe the Great Mystery that is God.  While I do believe that The Holy Trinity is a very useful metaphor for that which is beyond our comprehension, I do not believe it is the only true way to refer to the Great I Am.  The feminine aspects of the nature of God, the nurturing creativity giving birth to the world, gives us another glimpse at the wonder of God.  Using feminine language for God is not contrary to what we read in the Bible.  Indeed the Hebrew word Ruah which starts my poem below is the word used to refer to the Spirit of God many times in the Bible.  The name Sophia is also used to refer to the wisdom of God.  Even the use of the word Goddess, then is not a pagan image, but just another image to illustrate another dimension of the unfathomable mystery that is the Creator and Sustainer of All.  I pray that even if the masculine Trinity of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit are the images of God that you are most comfortable with, that you may also be able to appreciate the feminine nature of God and will be blessed by the poem below. 
May the Spirit of God, Ruah, be with you as you walk your journey.

Awaken

Ruah, Spirit, your breath ripples the waters of my soul

Visions of your movement through the Mother Tree

Awaken my eyes to your presence.

The rustle of the Sacred Grove saying

“Awake,  Awake,  Awake!”

“The Spirit of Sophia is stirring the foundation of your life.”

With the cool taste of the breeze upon my lips,

My heart yearns for the closeness of your presence.

Fragrances sweet and earthy from the bowers of Mother Earth, cry out,

“Pluck me from the hidden garden”

“Revel in the aroma of the Goddess alive in the world”

I am awake!  I can see, hear, taste, smell and touch the creation of the Goddess.

Within each flower, each stream, each tree, each creature, each person I encounter,

The Spirit of Sophia is present, alive!

Aaah, even in the inner secret places of my soul

The spark of the Spirit is glowing, alive

Ready to burst forth in song!

Karen Campbell, May 1, 2011